this is either i say small things that are congruent or big things that are incongruent. everything is vague enough that there shouldn't be anything too upsetting but equally this is unfiltered beyond when i get scared and, filter it for my own personal comfort. wahoo
- 07/04/25 23:23: cant figure out how to get hangul to display i might just give up for noww NEVRMIND got it im jyst that good
- 07/04/25 22:53: slightly scared i'm just . never going to sleep properly ever again, i mean this isn't true but aggghg i got like around 2 hours last night and i still have like 5 hours worth of work due tomorrow afternoon ... at least my english teacher is nice and kind and will not kill me with hammers if i don't get it done but i know me i won't be able to rest happily until i've done something. but also i am incapable of doing anything. umm in other news i've been learning hangeul for some reason?? i just, decided to try it last wednesday evening and i've actually kept going with it its enjoyable, i'm getting the hang of basic vowels and consonants at the very least. i like this ㅂㅏ which is pronounced as ba i keep thinking about sheep going ㅂㅏ . sidenote i don't know how to do hangeul characters without having them in em or another text thing so that i can change the language attribute?? but it works so whatever its aweosme . i've started another site on a different webhosting domain but its (tangentially) for college and sorta doxxes myself so sadly i can't post about it on here :*(( might implement some of the stuff i figure out on there on here though!!! shout out to the map tag and the the selecting parts of images there's probably something cool i can do with that. maybe i WILL make a shitty philosophy webcomic. but what i really should be doing is all the work due . tomorrow and then there's more on wednesday it never ends ever but also we ball. i'm in a bit of a weird place and i don't even just mean that about the lack of sleep although yes thats having an impact and yes i should go to bed . blegh , . omg yeah i finally did hacking my ds last night and it was going so well BUT THEN the sd card doesn't have enough storage for it </3 like even when i took out both the Nintendo 3DS + DCIM folders it wasn't enoughhhh so i'll have to find another sd card i guess. my dad has a bunch there was one i was planning on using actually but of course they already have things on them so maybe i'll get my own sometime soon. nice little easter present. honestly my main motivation for doing that with the ds is because i want the region lock gone because,, i wanted to get korean animal crossing new leaf just for fun and see what its like and ALSO if i could do comparisions of versions myself for like, tomodachi life that'd be so cool and wonderful. ok yeah i don't actually want to talk about proper personal stuff on here but i think i will if i keep going so i'm stopping here for now goodnight neocities dot com nevermind WHY isn't the hangeul characters working aaaaaa
- 02/04/25 00:57: do you think people really know how talented and wonderful they are. like yes theyre told it all the time but do they Know you need to KNOW and maybe i'll be that person for someone byut IN THE NON WEIRD way not obsessing iver me please tahsd be lovely <3 im being evil and lying at the minute i think ie not going to bed but its not my fault!!! actually it totally is but i . blegh .. bedtime in an hour and a half at the latest hopefully o7 . um i sang at concert and im emotional abt it tldr
- 28/03/25 00:56: so the thing about shit being crazy is it keeps being crazy except about very different things to what i was last talking about on here t'would seem. fuck i'm just so. what the hell about it all things just keep happening and i feel so confused and lost but equally there's good times although this week they have been few and far between. what else has happened this month uh. had 2 Scary Appointments now and they both went well i am hopeful in that regard!!! i started drinking coffee i've only really had lattes but its gone from no caffeine to 1 latte per day which is probably not great but i don't think its the end of the world. TOMODACHI LIFE 2 ANNOUNCED YESTERDAY which is insane ohhhh my god its all i've been waiting for for actually years and years like FUCK its hitting me as i'm writing it holy shit shaking you, the reader, by the shoulders i talked to my friend who i now havent seen and will probably never see about the possibilities for this when i was like 10 and then consistently forever considering tomodachi life sequel and now its real they better have gay people in it ohhhh my god also new songs please please PLEASE new songs. i'm so incoherent right now agrhghghghg shit fucking SUCKS but also tomodachi life and also rhythm heaven !!!!! sorry this was a bad time to start writing a miniblog i'm in the middle of a conversation i instigated but now don't actually want to continue TwT there's so many words on this computer screen i love words i'm thinking about doing an english degree. maybe philosophy or maybe combined but english my love my universal constant . my subject i haven't fully done tomorrow's hwk for WHY WONT IT LET ME DO A HEART AEGGHGHJGKHG blegh . there are so many nice peoplel out there btw yes a lot is awful but sooooo many people are so very loovely to me its scary but so kind and nice i should be going to bed but Conversation i am trying to avoid. i want to read i want to draw i want to sew i want to paint there'sso much i want to do and i keep not doing anything its sucks i hope i can do things i love when i can do things . hey neocities nation . thank you for all the web sites . yes
- 19/02/25 23:41: aagghghghgg crazy times what the fuck!!! had my last show of a 3 night run tonight all of them went really well im gonna miss it so much :((( it was such a good experience despite how tiring and constant the rehearsals were i'm so glad i did it!! today was good but ngl i have been having a shitty ass time the past few days outside of performances, like genuinely i think i've got a depressive episode going on its fucking rough!!! but yeah todays been easier so i'm holding on to that i'll make it through. got Appointment tomorrow i don't wanna say what just in case it goes badly and then i'd have to say that here but hopefully its all alright. 2 weeks since breakup now and also 2 years today since we had a really good day but that wasn't dating then, its good. friendship like for real i love friendship FUCK this cider feels kinda weird inside my throat but i think thats just the fizziness. fuck im just like arfhghggfhghg we fucking made it i'm not dying tonight !!!! what the hell!!!! oh also also done some hedgehog guy drawing motivated by my friend who also has a silly little (furry) comic its awesomeeee i might try draw a bit tonight i'll see how it goes. ok i think thats all i have to say ba bye crawtterly nation
- 15/02/25 00:33: procrastinating sorting laundry + then going to bed rn so instead hi miniblog!!! how are we only now just over halfway through february its been the craziest fucking month holy shit. valentine's yesterday!! i was worried i was gonna be weird about it because i got divorced (good terms break up) literally last week but honestly things weren't so bad i was having lots of good friend times so yay!! there's one guy in particular who is awesome cause i can talk to him very openly about some things that i've literally never even said out loud before it's very nice and he's great, and yeag yay good friend :] uh also!! got my exam (only mocks not actually counting for anything) grades back and i did crazy well i was like 3 marks off top grade in 2 subjects???? which is genuinely insane i feel comfortable enough just about to say i'm proud of myself for that. times are crazy at the minute. as in on a more grim note i've been struggling really quite badly since early january and even though right now i feel ok!! it's really really all quite difficult at the minute and i'm apprehensive about the upcoming week given i have,, 5 performances between today and next saturday, plus some other prettyyy major things happening within the week ,,,,,, i have a feeling the post-show numbness is gonna hit Hard so i'm a bit scared of that but at least i'm prepared i guess. on a completely different note!!! i saw just a few minutes ago the orv live action trailer and i'm mixed about it; the main thing is that they've given the characters guns when they had swords in the novel and i'm not sure how i feel about that? idk the trailer was only 30 seconds so i don't want to make too many sweeping judgements on it from that alone. there's also gonna be a new episode in a zelda youtube series i like a lot nexr week which is really exciting!!! so maybe things will all be ok yknow. that's sort of how its going. anyway i think thats all i have to say so i should really do my bedtime things now its a long long day tomorrow followed by a long long week!! goodnight internet i won't actually go to sleep for a while still but the sentiment is there
- 10/02/25 20:07: very much there have been more significant life events in the last week however!!!!! as someone who doesn't even know what the superbowl is really i watched kendrick's half time show just earlier and i'm in awe it's incredible he's so talented im like arrrgggfggg i need to listen to all his music Right Now its so good what the fuck . yeah thrres other things to but i cant be bothered to articulate all that on here right now
- 03/02/25 21:26: ok today was pretty rough i ended up talking to a couple people about what's going on with me at the minute which was, difficult but probably worthwhile! right now i don't feel too bad, kinda tired but thats manageable. was rewatching the last episode of rt's persona 5 royal playthrough again since it's the february 3rd maruki palace day so that was nice!! just gotta keep taking it steady and doing things i enjoy, which sure is gonna be difficult this month given the nearly 10 different performances --_-- OH YEAH i had one of them today it was just a short scene it was not awful! good to practice performing in front of an audience it's been a while for me. anyway yes i think i will keep doing pleasant happy website things and try my best :) it should be ok
- 02/02/25 15:17: downloaded libre office since i've heard it's good but just from experimenting it seems really laggy :( but also that could very easily be my old struggling laptop rather than the software itself! i also don't know how much i'll use it since i have to use google stuff for college :/ still its probably a good thing to have!! also i've been doing a lot of listening to music or rather making a big massive playlist of songs i don't know and then listening to them now. started thinking about how much music there is in the world and how little of it i know so it's all like international stuff its very cool to explore!but specifically in the way of finding music i actually like, not just feeling vaguely obligated to diversify into all music genres cause i don't think thats how it works especially. i mean its good to listen to new things but if you don't like how something sounds then what's the point really? do whatever you want forever. i think one of my favourites i've found so far is The Earth From A Distance by Sinta Wullur, which is a fusion between Balinese gamelan and Indian ragas (according to her bandcamp anyhow), but i still have a lot to listen to!! part of me is tempted to put a guestbook thing on here just to ask people what music they like but i'm not certain... however if you're reading this please feel free to comment on my page or email me or whatever telling me about music you enjoy!!! (do people read through random web miniblogs? as in will anyone actually see that? who knows) anyway yes i should reallllyyy be doing some work so i will get to that. maybe. still need to write more for the blog post but its not like that has a deadline and my assingmence do ,,, very busy week next week so i really should get on top of things
- 01/02/25 01:12: working on a blog post (actually in notepad not just on the neocities which is crazy) im just rambling about show... would do more now but i am getting sleeepyy ghghhkhgh jh (me when i am sleepy) -_- oh but also!!! the commissioned drawing of my guy is done and he loooks great im very very happy with it :33 ok im going to bed goodnight neocities dot org
- 30/01/25 21:56: things have been kinda awful this past week or, month but!!! there have also been lots of good things. and right now i feel excited and joyful as i am hopefully!! getting a little commission drawing of my fursona guy which is very very exciting!! however i do have so very much work to do right now that i am simply not doing this is a bad idea. alas i am having fun so i don't want toooooo
- 26/01/25 23:42: feeling a bit weird not gonna lie (the arrangment of moonlight sonata on the radio rn is perhaps not helping this!but also its pretty) . had a very nice day today doing minigolf with friends i was kinda bad at it but it was a nice time. but then we've got family things atm which are making me feel all sorts of ways i don't properly understand. done some vague js stuff today on here (largely just copy and pasting from w3schools but oh. well) think i will probably go to bed soon that would be good for me. if i didn't think itd make me Feel id do a little bit of painting first but i don't think i can be normal about it right now
- 04/01/25 17:36: i am sooo sleepy but i have so much work to do for monday,,, slept kinda weirdly cause it was my Mutual's birthday and then i've been out for food for other birthday (which was very tasty yay) but aggg i am , tired. still thinking about harmony and the comedian harmonists a lot btw like to the extent i would consider spending £30 on the book about them it's good stuff. neeeed to do some music practice so i will do that and then try my best to do geography work so it doesn't allll have to be done tomorrow night instead!!
- 02/01/25 02:31: happy new year!!! i've been working on a vague reference sheet for my fursona fella and its very good fun and makes me verry happy :) he is just some strange hedgehog fella and he's like me if i was him its great its yayyyy yay hoorayyy yay !!! i think his name is Zed since thats the one i went for to put on the transmasc webring(!!!) so good for him yes. also im debating if i want him to he/it it up cause there's a small part of me that wants that but not properly so i can throw it on the Guy instead yknow. but also i'm not sure so i will see how it goes as i keep going!!!! but for now im going to bed goodnight internet
- 30/12/24 01:59: FINALLY WATCHED HARMONY A NEW MUSICAL i havent stopped being tearful its. holy shitm its so good its s so good genuinely invreidble and worndergul and heartbreaking and beautuful akdntragic ajnd heartbreaking and amazing
- 29/12/24 14:42: finally started playing professor layton pandora's box and i'm actually so bad ,, like im not saying that in a self depreciating way i am just. objectively bad at the game TwT (i dont mormal normally do that face but i cant put my hearrbeak here due to coding) its good fun though!!! the music is good and the plot seems silly and charming
- 28/12/24 15:06: woah its miniblog time!! wanted to pop in here and say im doing a silly drawing where its me looking exhausted in a hatsune miku tshirt except its my fursona guy. also i think i should make a whole page for him now that he's, existing more properly, but also i'm meant to be tidying right now agggghhg